Bloodwork
by Xenia E.
ginger ale makes me sneeze
the good kind anyway but I’ll take a
green aluminum can over nothing
we met in a month where the
season started to change–that’s a
specific time of year to meet someone
we both got blood drawn that month
for unrelated issues. I was taking
care of myself and my chaotic stomach
(this is why I know so much about ginger ale)
you were monitoring the tumors
in your uterus and taking care of yourself
we both did that separately but the context
that now I get to exist alongside you
changes everything.
I don’t wince at a needle’s pull I know you
don’t either, we’ve both been through so much
I like that about us, it makes our love
more candid. There’s so much satisfaction in
getting one’s hands covered in earth and debris
and then washing them clean.
the moon was kind of elusive when we stood
watching it on a bridge, you pulled out your phone
which told us the star I was inquiring about
was part of Serpens, a constellation in the
northern hemisphere, coined by the 2nd astronomer
I always want to name stars as planets
everything always exists alone to me and then you
pulled out your phone and told me the star
I was pointing to was part of a constellation
which reminded me everything belongs somewhere
In mythology Serpens represents
a healer holding a giant snake who was
said to bring back people from the dead
today you went for a run said it felt so
good but that you also felt weak, last night
I drank a ginger ale because my stomach hurt
next week we talk to our doctors separately
because I get to exist alongside you it
changes everything. I ordered the bloodwork
before we met it’s just that now I feel
brought back from my own sort of dead
a kind of dead where I’ve practiced so many times
how to exist alone in the world I forgot about the
possibility of existing alongside you:
healer, patient, constellation.
Xenia E. (she/they) is a freelance writer and singer/songwriter. She graduated from The New School with a degree in literary studies. She loves movies with horses in them. Follow her on Twiter @ _xeniae and on Instagram @xenia.elle.